Dear Spencer

Dear Spencer,

It’s been 7 months and 10 days since you left. The hardest 7 months and 10 days of my life. I miss spending time with you, listening to your life stories, hearing your voice, and your laugh. Most of all I miss my big brother.

I read a book about grieving a sibling; it said it’s hard for younger siblings because they never had to experience life without the older sibling. It’s true. The world has about 7 billion people in it but it feels so empty without you.

I want to thank you; I missed my chance when you were here. You taught me so much about life. You gave me happiness and comfort in knowing you were there for me. The memories we made together will always be in my heart. Thank you, for being my brother.

You will always be my best friend and my greatest hero. Time hasn't changed anything; I still miss you as much as I did the day you died. 

Happy birthday! I would give anything to be spending it with you. 

I love you.

Love,

Jessica

The moment that you left me,

my heart was split in two,

one side was filled with memories and the other side died with you.

I often lay awake at night when the world is fast asleep;

And take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my check.

Remembering you is easy, I do it every day;

But missing you is a heartache that never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain;

You see life has gone on without you but will never be the same.

-sayinggoodbye.org